Hi Guys,
I am looking for likeminded and mature people, who would be interested in working on a game project together.
I have battled with the thought of actually going ‘out there’ and looking for people for a while now, probably out of fear of being rejected. When I was invited to this forum, I thought it might be a good chance to send some feelers out and to see what happens.
Let me give you an idea of who I am first; I am in my 30s and I am battling with severe anxiety and panic disorder for a long time now. Somehow I was not born with high tolerance for stress. I managed to slowly climb corporate ladder, though that was at a great cost to my mental wellbeing. This in turn slowly led me to a moment where I could take no more, and I quit my well-paid programmer job, so I could spend more time at home. Eventually I have started my own business and I am doing all right, though the people I am working with now – even though remotely – are same toxic people I worked with before. People who somehow got to where they are solely on backs of the others, people who think that ‘looking busy’ means you are doing a good job.
Well I had enough, and I am looking at properly severing myself from the industry I work at now and from such people. I always wanted to work in gaming industry, and now I am steering my life and doing everything else I can to make it happen. I figured if I do not do it now, then when?
I have solid experience in team leadership and building, project management, software development and IT infrastructure. I have managed few large projects in my life too, for massive brands. I code, though lately I realised that I am jack of all trades but master of none. Each project that I worked on in the last 10 years meant learning new language, process, db, framework or whatever else client needed.
I have few solid ideas for games, I’ve done some writing and research too. I am an avid gamer of course, with true love and passion for Sci-Fi. One of my ideas for a game is to plunge a character similar to me in the fact that they too suffer from anxiety and panic, into Sci-Fi horror setting and use it as a s metaphor for the internal and external battle person with disorder has to go through each day. A blend of internal and external fear, where you never really know what is real and what is not. Just an idea, and I am sure many of you would have something to add to that simple premise.
Who am I looking for? Anybody really, who is first of all emotionally mature. I want the work to be fun experience for all, that means surrounding myself with people who know how to play nice with each other, and how to listen. After that everything else is a bonus. Maybe just like me you are an owner of small business, well we could put our resources together for something better. Maybe you are just looking for something else to do, or like me you want to cut yourself from work that is making you really unhappy.
I have nothing planned after this, I just wanted to post this and see what’s the response. If there are people who are interested then great, we could talk, chat, email or skype and see what happens next.
Pawel